Grinch Style?

So here I sit. Waiting. On everyone and everything (may be over dramatized to get point across)….

Ok, I am not waiting on everyone and everything, but I am waiting on quite a few things and people. I am waiting for people to acknowledge my emails that I have sent with an OK or an I am in or whatever pertains to a good response to an email…. I am waiting for life stuff to pan out. I am waiting to pull myself out of my current funk. I am just plain waiting I guess. It seems that around the holidays, everyone else puts shit on pause…. I am Jewish. Yea, my mom is catholic and so she has a tree and we open gifts on Christmas and I go to services with her and hell, I even enjoy it most of the time. I like Christmas carols and I enjoy the smells, lights and everything that comes with the holiday (minus the religious aspects of it as far as pertaining to the baby jesus)…. but if you ask me if I am in church on Easter or any of the other major Christian holidays, the answer is no. I do take off work for Rosh Hashana, Yom Kippur, etc. however…. just so there is no confusion.

I mean, dont get me wrong, I was truly blessed to have a split household growing up because it enabled me to learn about religion and religious tolerance and hell, I explored a number of other religions in college, but I always came back to Judaism. Now, this is neither here nor there.

Maybe because I am me or I worked at a place for 3 years that was literally open 365 days a year, I am used to working on holidays, on all eves and hell, even on Christmas day. So to me, working the week of Christmas and having things due then is not a big issue. If I am at work, I assume you expect me to be working. This, to me, makes sense and I understand that this is not how everyone operates by any means. In regular jobs that actually close on government holidays, people take time off around them to enjoy and spend time with family and generally relax. Relax – this word very rarely enters my vocabulary. I feel like for about 3-4 years after college, I did “relax” so to speak. I mean I worked, but I didn’t have the work ethic then that I have now. Then, I never took work home with me. I did no work on the side and I just generally did what was necessary at work and left it as such…

Now, I do what it takes to get work done. I check work email at home and complete projects when needed wherever I am. I do side work (have about 3-4 projects going), I am in school and I am working on some personal projects. To say this is a drastic change from what I was a mere 5 years ago, is an understatement. With that being said, I think it is important to note that this change occurred about 3.5 years back in June of 2009. In the past year, I have had to find a balance between all of this stuff AND being able to see friends and kick it with the pup pup. While I am still working on my work-life balance and trying to get enough time for everything, I still am managing to do the thing to an extent… but I also have some issue with making it to all friend functions or getting a sa project completed when I underestimate time (I am noramlly within 24-48 hours of stated deadline but lord) and then end up feeling like I am letting someone down, always. And when I fail at spending time with the husband and the pup pup, I feel even more guilty because they are around all of the time, yet dont always get the attention the deserve from me because of all of this other stuff….

With the new year coming, and my training about to take a step up due to my goals of 13 in 2013, I have to say that my time management will be stepping up and I will actually begin to say no to some outside projects to get other stuff done. God bless my husband, he has started running and now runs the first couple of miles with me on my long runs on Saturday mornings. We calls them our run dates! He is so awesome!

Presently I am waiting to find out if I made it into my program and focuses for grad school – I find out on the 21st (assuming the world doesn’t end, HAH! we all know it isnt gonna, right? right? i know it aint. NASA put stuff up about how silly that is!).

I am also waiting for registration to open for the Marine Corps 17.75k (which includes guaranteed entry to MCM). I am waiting on me manning up and registering for tough mudder (what the hell am i so afraid of?) and I am waiting on the people who are making decisions to make them so I can move forward. I didnt get into NWM DC and I am bitter, but no worries, cause itll pass. I am too awesome to beg for a spot. BUT if you end up selling your bib, lemme know. šŸ˜›

With all of this waiting, you prolly wonder why I dont just kick back and relax a little while I wait? Why you ask? Because I don’t want to go insane. Which I would. If I tried this whole waiting thing. Anyway I have rambled enough. A few things I want to share with you before we leave today:

1) CHECK OUT THIS AMAZING PIECE I PUT UP FOR WORK! Ā View it here:Ā http://www.nasa.gov/externalflash/YIR12/

I am really proud of it.

2) I am done waiting for this: I AM A GIRLS GONE SPORTY AMBASSADOR!

3) The Redskins actually stand a chance of making it to the playoffs?!!? This is AWESOME news!!! We are tied for first place in the NFC East! Also a first in several years. I am also going to my first redskins game ever (long time fan, first time game goer) on Dec 30 at FedEx to watch the Skins take on the Cowboys. It could be a deciding game for playoffs as well as a rival grudge match. Here’s hopin we man up!

4) Happy holidays, no matter your religion and what you celebrate, festivus for the rest of us and all that jazz.

Festivus for the Rest of Us!

This is a pug I found on the interwebs and not aldy

and this pretty much sums up how i roll these days:

happy tis the season y’all. šŸ™‚

I have failed you

As of late, I have failed you as a blogger. I haven’t posted about my trip or the fact that I am back at square 0 in my training because after my 10k I decided not to run anymore for two weeks then I went to Costa Rica and opted not to run there either. Thanks to my bosses and coworkers, I now see daylight! I got my hours adjusted at work so I could run in daylight!

As far as coming home from costa rica… it was bitter sweet. My dog was happy to see my husband and I. I was happy to see him and my condo. I missed my home. I missed people and things that come w being close to a city and work and toilets I was allowed to flush toilet paper down…

But. I knew I would miss the laid back atmosphere of Costa Rica. And the beauty. Ah well. Bitter sweet.

Will post pics and a proper update soon. Just thought I should let y’all know I’m back. And sorry for the radio silence.

Giveaway Winner and Worldly Update

picked a giveaway winner through random.org — commenter number 14 — @melissyk — get at me and DM me your address so I can drop your gift card in the mail to you

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For a worldly update. All of my running ceased last week in light of completion of a 10k, Sandy banging the east coast with water overloads and some family stuff that forced me to go back and assist at my folks’ place for a little bit. BUT we are still trucking and the exercising begins again today!

Soccer tonight, rest tomorrow/free yoga in the district for election day (http://www.lululemon.com/community/blog/election-day-yoga/Ā — if the link doesnt pull up, I am sorry… it’s acting weird now), running wednesday and thursday and then COSTA freakin RITA ON FRIDAY!!! WOOOOO!!!! Aight. That’s all. Thanks to everyone who entered my first giveaway, I am pretty happy with the turn out for my first attempt!

Race pics, jumbled thoughts, frustrations and some positivity thrown in there somewhere

Well let’s start with the race pics!

Before the race, being crazy

My buddy, Aaron, rocking the geek run!

My friend, Sheena, working hard!

Me, running my ass off. Funny faces in their greatest glory!

Sheena and I finishing strong!

Sheena and I after the race

Overall a good time! Happy I am signed up for approx three more races. Hope to get a ten miler in there in addition to the 10k, half marathon and triathlon!

I have had a ton of random thoughts lately. Everything from I am not where I want to be at the age of almost 30. I am really proud of my latest work. You can view it here. It is a flash piece on the 50th anniversary of Wally Schirra’s Mercury flight. I liked doing it because it is COMPLETELY different from what I have been doing for the past 8 years (since I got out of school). I have been moving towards different for a while, I think.

Totally random and unrelated, kinda awesome, kinda sucky. I have 7 NEW books on my kindle/kindle app on ipad! (awesome) I have no time to read any of them right now (sucky!)…. sad. Hopefully after my midterm, things will die down a little. I am eagerly awaiting the email to tell me whether I made the cut to be an Oiselle ambassador of sorts. I am hoping for the best and we will not discuss the worst. But whatever happens, happens and if not today, then it will all happen for me another day. Anywho. waiting….
I have never had a pumpkin spice latte. I am off to get one now. Fattyness be damned! I ran for a solid 75 minutes in my soccer game last night! hehehe. Catch y’all on the flip side. Sorry for lack of info right now. Waiting for things to firm up.

It is Best to be Prepared in a Zombie Apocalypse

There are a couple of things I want to touch on… hope I can remember em all before I publish this post, so here goes…

1) It is best to be prepared in a zombie apocalypse…

If you know something is coming and it is going to be bad, or just blah, why not prepare for it? Zombie apocalypses are especially important to prepare for!

And lemme tell you, if anyone is going to end up dead in a zombie apocalypse, I refuse to let it be me! Zombie apocalypses are big and scary looming events. The only way to be prepared (in my mid) is to have an escape route, two shotguns, plenty of ammo, a broad sword, a huge pair of balls (aka: guts) and a partner with the same qualities!

I want to take a brief note to discuss how this was a total factor for me when marrying my husband, Jerid. My husband is an amazing and helpful man. Very considerate of my needs and wants, he often lets me take the lead on all things in our lives, giving input as we go and subscribing to the philosophy of happy wife=happy life. Now, this is not to say that he doesn’t have opinions and he doesn’t express them… he does have opinions and he does express them. And I listen. We have a partnership, not a me-ship (as much as I like to think so from time to time). And often times when we have separate opinions, he has a viable and justifiable reason to have said opinions about things. My point being, my husband is awesome. He would totally be an excellent killing partner in a zombie apocalypse and has been nothing but supportive during this whole confusing time I have going on…aka: my zombie apocalypse.

This one is just funny (sorry for the foul language mommy) and kinda true.. ok, really true, but who’s keeping count? Prolly people like me… and my brother and my husband and our friends. HAHAHAHA

2) Why the f*#k would you do that?

I read a couple of really neat posts today. One of which discussed this article about a really awesome productivity tool. It got me thinkin, just like the blog post author did, about how many events I agree to that I either don’t want to go to, don’t have the time for, or just can’t do for personal reasons, yet I agree to them anyway… stretching myself WAY too thin and then think to myself something has to give. This event needs to stop happening so I get a chance to breathe and this needs to give over here and really I then think I am an idiot because no one did anything to me but myself. Anyway, the blog post and then the article introduce a really neat productivity tool, where you are presented with a task and then you ask yourself “Why the f— would I do that?” and if you are truly honest with yourself and you dont have a good reason, you end up with more time for the stuff you wanna do. With that being said, a good reason could be because your friend needs your support or your mom asked you… but if you cant think of a good reason then… you should get some free time to, i dunno… do your homework and readings and stuff.

I haven’t tried it, but I intend to start. Maybe y’all should too! Let’s try and get super honest with ourselves.

3) Let us take a moment of silence for the baby panda cub who’s death is still a mystery, a chance to root on the Nats in their first post season berth since 1933… <moment of silence>

4) Let us take a second to YELL AT THE REDSKINS COACHING STAFF

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING!?? Cause from the cheap seats, over here… in my living room… it seems like YOU ARENT! Pull your head from your ass and see number 2! Ask yourself why the f*#k would I do that, but alter it to ask “Why the f*#k is that a good play or decision right now with a short time period left? WillĀ  it lose us the game?!

To me this earns a whole number to itself, because this was supposed to be our chance, our season, the change, to TAKE BACK THE DAMN STADIUM, THE DAMN CONFERENCE and possibly achieve a playoff berth. As of now, I am def not impressed with the coaching or the reffing. We are only three games in (1 win, 2 losses thus far), so it is too soon to tell… but if we are going to do better, people have got to get smarter!

 

ok, this is all i got. happy monday y’all!

College throwback to remember the best human being I ever met…

this post will prolly go back and forth between third person,Ā reminiscing, and speaking in a sort of open letter toa dear dear friend of mine who has passed.

I went to Purdue from August 2001-May 2005. I met some amazing and wonderful people while I was there. One of the best people I met was a guy I was introduced to through an ex boyfriend. This guy I was introduced to was named Donovan. He was awesome and we became pretty fast friends. We spent hours playing PS2 (specifically soul calibur 2), watching Alice in Wonderland, goofing off in Spanish Lit class and generally hanging out. We watched a lot of family guy and drank a fair amount of beer while listening to a variety of different types of music.

Donovan and me at a Hookah bar in Georgetown, summer of 2006.

He quickly became one of my best friends and we were inseparable for a couple of years. He got me through a lot and meant quite a bit to me. I didnt grieve his death properly until the third year after he had passed when I went on this day in 2009 to a tattoo shop where I got two nautical stars on the backs of my legs with his initials and birth and death years underneath and then proceeded to watch the Chappelle Show (the entire second season). I took the day off work and dedicated it to DD.

The following year in Aug of 2010, I got the robot he drew and a Kurt Vonnegut quote on my leg:

The heart is bleeding a little. And the Kurt quote is to represent that life goes on. In literature, and in Slaughterhouse five, the phrase “And so it goes…” was mentioned every time death was mentioned. Sometimes it was in sorrow, sometimes absurdly or in a comedic fashion… it was repeated 116 times in the book. The phrase was used to demonstrate andĀ represent the randomness of death ā€” how death can come to anyone at any time. When I thought of Donovan, this is what phrase came to mind.

Donovan,

You were there for me when I needed a friend, a shoulder to cry on, when I needed anything really. I couldn’t have asked for a better friend or someone more awesome to have been in my life. You did so much for me and I am sure you don’t even know it. I have so much I want to tell you; so many things have happened in the last 6 years that I wish I could have shared with you and told you about and been with you for. I went through a lot. You passed, then Chaz and then things got dark for a while and then they seemed to get light again and then I met an amazing person. And I married him. I wish you had been able to be there with me on that day. You would have been calming, I am sure.

When you passed, I disconnected from pretty much all of our friends. I went into hiding. I stopped speaking to the majority of people I would have called my family mere years earlier, just like I normally go into hiding every year on August 29th. This year, I didn’t. I am determined to change. I celebrate your life everyday. You impacted me in ways that I wasnt even aware of until recently. You will always be a part of me and my life. You were an amazing person. Up for anything. You changed me. And I am determined to change for the better. Today is the beginning. With your passing, and my not hiding, I will reach out to those that I used to know ( that you used to know) and hopefully rekinlde the friendships we once had, outside of facebook.

DD, know that I miss you and that I will always miss you. You left a hole in my heart. But I know you are watching over me. And I hope there is some kick ass beer and music up you are experiencing wherever you are right now.

Love ya mang.

So I says to mable, I says… I’ll finish this story later.

 

Can’t end this with anything less than Gigolo by Nick Cannon ft R Kelly.

Randomity at it’s finest.

I’ve been reading a lot of random stuff lately… trying to catch up on politics I missed over the summer during my 6 week intense class…so between reading to catch up on all of the public events I have missed and I have also been contemplating lots of different things.

I have been doing web design and development for close to a decade (8 years and some change) and it is awesome. I like it. It allows me to explore both creative and problem solving sides of me, but I want more. I have a thirst to do more, be more, see more, live more, everything… just MORE. More, more and more. Can I have another helping of interesting, and another dose of inspiration? Please? NOW! If you are truly passionate about something, then you should go get it. Don’t lie down. Don’t let someone tell you that you cannot achieve something. Chances are they are in their own rut and they are speaking about themselves. My mother, one of the most amazing women I know, has been watching me over the past couple of weeks. When I told her I wanted to run a half marathon, her initial reaction was “start with something smaller, shorter, less” and my response to that was why? I kept pushing. She is now thinking and has voiced that she believes I can do this half marathon thing. She believed in me before I believed in myself as far as grad school goes. She is truly an amazing woman. Extraordinary if you will. During a time when most would be crumbling, she persevered and achieved her doctorate at the ripe age of 62. She is an inspiration who didn’t listen when people told her no or cant or wont.

She gave me the ability to tune out those words as well. You say I can’t code something because I don’t know how? Would you tell Steve Jobs he couldn’t innovate or tell Bill Gates he couldn’t code or Mark Zuckerburg that facebook WONT work…. all of these people started with someone telling them they couldnt.

Ignore the negative, embrace the positive. I was recently talking to a good friend of mine (past coworker, turned amazing friend, turned neighbor) and she was having some life dilemmas. We have been talking a lot lately about the future and what there is to it. She is a unique being who is a total trooper. I asked her a question about whether she thought people could make a life out of being inspirational speaking and life coaching? She said yes and that I had inspired her. This got me thinking. We continued the discussion, ending with me in all caps stating NO MAN LEFT BEHIND!

I know this has been a jumble of thoughts, but I want to take this time to encourage all of you to do one thing today or over the next couple of weeks that you thought you could never do. Sign up for a race, write an article for a local blog or paper, make a music video, start a movement…. do what makes you feel awesome. DO SOMETHING THAT SCARES (or surprises) YOU!.

GET SOME

Stay tuned. More to come.

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