So here I sit. Waiting. On everyone and everything (may be over dramatized to get point across)….
Ok, I am not waiting on everyone and everything, but I am waiting on quite a few things and people. I am waiting for people to acknowledge my emails that I have sent with an OK or an I am in or whatever pertains to a good response to an email…. I am waiting for life stuff to pan out. I am waiting to pull myself out of my current funk. I am just plain waiting I guess. It seems that around the holidays, everyone else puts shit on pause…. I am Jewish. Yea, my mom is catholic and so she has a tree and we open gifts on Christmas and I go to services with her and hell, I even enjoy it most of the time. I like Christmas carols and I enjoy the smells, lights and everything that comes with the holiday (minus the religious aspects of it as far as pertaining to the baby jesus)…. but if you ask me if I am in church on Easter or any of the other major Christian holidays, the answer is no. I do take off work for Rosh Hashana, Yom Kippur, etc. however…. just so there is no confusion.
I mean, dont get me wrong, I was truly blessed to have a split household growing up because it enabled me to learn about religion and religious tolerance and hell, I explored a number of other religions in college, but I always came back to Judaism. Now, this is neither here nor there.
Maybe because I am me or I worked at a place for 3 years that was literally open 365 days a year, I am used to working on holidays, on all eves and hell, even on Christmas day. So to me, working the week of Christmas and having things due then is not a big issue. If I am at work, I assume you expect me to be working. This, to me, makes sense and I understand that this is not how everyone operates by any means. In regular jobs that actually close on government holidays, people take time off around them to enjoy and spend time with family and generally relax. Relax – this word very rarely enters my vocabulary. I feel like for about 3-4 years after college, I did “relax” so to speak. I mean I worked, but I didn’t have the work ethic then that I have now. Then, I never took work home with me. I did no work on the side and I just generally did what was necessary at work and left it as such…
Now, I do what it takes to get work done. I check work email at home and complete projects when needed wherever I am. I do side work (have about 3-4 projects going), I am in school and I am working on some personal projects. To say this is a drastic change from what I was a mere 5 years ago, is an understatement. With that being said, I think it is important to note that this change occurred about 3.5 years back in June of 2009. In the past year, I have had to find a balance between all of this stuff AND being able to see friends and kick it with the pup pup. While I am still working on my work-life balance and trying to get enough time for everything, I still am managing to do the thing to an extent… but I also have some issue with making it to all friend functions or getting a sa project completed when I underestimate time (I am noramlly within 24-48 hours of stated deadline but lord) and then end up feeling like I am letting someone down, always. And when I fail at spending time with the husband and the pup pup, I feel even more guilty because they are around all of the time, yet dont always get the attention the deserve from me because of all of this other stuff….
With the new year coming, and my training about to take a step up due to my goals of 13 in 2013, I have to say that my time management will be stepping up and I will actually begin to say no to some outside projects to get other stuff done. God bless my husband, he has started running and now runs the first couple of miles with me on my long runs on Saturday mornings. We calls them our run dates! He is so awesome!
Presently I am waiting to find out if I made it into my program and focuses for grad school – I find out on the 21st (assuming the world doesn’t end, HAH! we all know it isnt gonna, right? right? i know it aint. NASA put stuff up about how silly that is!).
I am also waiting for registration to open for the Marine Corps 17.75k (which includes guaranteed entry to MCM). I am waiting on me manning up and registering for tough mudder (what the hell am i so afraid of?) and I am waiting on the people who are making decisions to make them so I can move forward. I didnt get into NWM DC and I am bitter, but no worries, cause itll pass. I am too awesome to beg for a spot. BUT if you end up selling your bib, lemme know.
With all of this waiting, you prolly wonder why I dont just kick back and relax a little while I wait? Why you ask? Because I don’t want to go insane. Which I would. If I tried this whole waiting thing. Anyway I have rambled enough. A few things I want to share with you before we leave today:
1) CHECK OUT THIS AMAZING PIECE I PUT UP FOR WORK! View it here: http://www.nasa.gov/externalflash/YIR12/
I am really proud of it.
2) I am done waiting for this: I AM A GIRLS GONE SPORTY AMBASSADOR!
3) The Redskins actually stand a chance of making it to the playoffs?!!? This is AWESOME news!!! We are tied for first place in the NFC East! Also a first in several years. I am also going to my first redskins game ever (long time fan, first time game goer) on Dec 30 at FedEx to watch the Skins take on the Cowboys. It could be a deciding game for playoffs as well as a rival grudge match. Here’s hopin we man up!
4) Happy holidays, no matter your religion and what you celebrate, festivus for the rest of us and all that jazz.
and this pretty much sums up how i roll these days:
happy tis the season y’all.